Instagram Deleted, Relapse and Not Loosing

About a month ago I went to check my Instagram ( was @ suffocated.lungs ) to find that it was deleted. Someone had reported it and it was gone. I emailed with Instagram and they said they couldn’t do anything; if it was reported too many times it would be automatically taken down.

This itself sent me into a spiral of relapse and destruction. I started binge eating; and then started purging again. I’ve been restricting to 500-800 calories (which is good, but I haven’t stuck with it for more than a week). It’s like my world has caved in on me and I can’t handle it. 

After 5-8 months clean, I relapsed. I self harmed and didn’t stop doing it until about a week ago. I still have urges but I try to suppress them. (When I say I didn’t stop until a week ago I mean I actually cut myself for 6-17 days in a row. Probably 10-15 cuts daily. Deep.)

And yes; I’m not loosing weight. I’ve bounced between 1-2 pounds and it kills me inside that I can’t do better. 

I’m going to try to go back to 800 calories a day, and if I keep that up for a week I’ll move to 500. I can do this. I can.

Thanks for listening, and I hope you guys are ready for more posts and a more active blog coming soon!!

-k

Morning After

Hello all my little beauties, so I’ve come to the realization that the ‘Morning After’ a fast is the worst, and best feelings ever.

So, how I thought up this topic would be; I just woke up. I’ve been fasting for about a day now and I feel like, just ew, but I feel really good. Its like a really good empty feeling, but at the same time you always feel more tired then you should be.

Now, I’m only taking this experience from water fasting; which, if you didn’t know, is where you only drink water. That’s all you can have. You kind of feel really tired in the morning, but as the day moves on and you drink more water – boom. You feel better!

I hope this shed some more light on fasting, and I will be doing more posts today about a new secret section of my blog that will be up shortly!

-K xo

Fasting Basics

Hello future Ana’s! Here are some quick tips to fasting you might not have known before; or you just need some mind refreshing. I mean, we aren’t all perfect.

1.  Chew gum. Its basically eating without the calories and the swallowing; and it tastes good! Just watch out for the total calories in some gum, you could be eating cals that you don’t want!

2. If you are water fasting; great. But need I express the absolute value of water? 0 calories. A big, fat zero. So binge away on water! It fills you up without the calories, and it keeps you hydrated! But Ice water is the best; because its so cold, your body actually uses calories to warm it up. so by drinking ice cold water, you could be losing some calories!

3. Ignore everyone. I have this problem on the daily; people commenting on me not eating. What I do is simple; ignore them. Because while you get skinny and pretty, they will be wallowing in food and fat. Be proud!

And that’s all the fasting basics / tips I have for now. Check back soon for more tips, tricks, and even Q & A about my fasting!

-K xo

Introduction to K and my Ana Lifestyle

Hello my fellow Ana followers, my name is K. In this current post I’ll be explaining myself, and showing you all what my goals are.

So, first I should share my stats. My current weight is around 194lbs, gross, I know. My goal weight is 90lbs. I am 5’1 and extremely fat. The reason I’ve decided to create this website is to help all you other Ana followers who are having trouble keeping up with your fasts / and or having bingeing problems. Of course, I have them too. But this way I can stick to my goals, and hopefully you can stick to yours too!

So this blog will have everything from thinspo, to Ana tips and tricks. I will also find a way to have a message board where you all can help each other out. Also, for everyone who would prefer to be on Tumblr or Instagram, my Tumblr is breathingana.tumblr.com   // and my instagram username is @straight.cut

I hope this cleared somethings up, and the fast that I will recommend and I use is the Water Fast. Which is just having water, and only water. It fills you up and its better then food; 0 calories!

Well, I’ll be on all night posting and making this blog perfect. So happy fasting!

-K xo